Katsuragi Misato (Hope) (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
failtactical) wrote2011-02-18 09:57 pm
failtactical) wrote2011-02-18 09:57 pm
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The Story Of How Misato Accidentally Her Usual Canon Self
The short version:
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The long version:
Okay so what is this essay even about Floor, WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR CHARACTER?
So! Canonically, Misato has HUGE AVOIDANCE ISSUES. She had a really crappy childhood wherein her dad was always busy with work and neglecting his family. She hated it! Except then one day there was a huge explosion and her dad put her in a protective capsule, sacrificing his own life for hers. This left her with about a million feelings and she swore revenge against the Angels.
She grew up to date and live with Kaji until one day she realized just how much he reminded her of her own father at which point she panicked and dumped him with the excuse that she was seeing someone else! And from then on her life was 120% devoted to achieving her revenge. At age 29 she is an utter failure of an adult, her apartment is a perpetual mess (until Shinji moves in), she can't cook to save her life, and she drinks beer with about every meal; while at work she is incredibly responsible and capable to the point of being promoted to Major thanks to her efficiency.
And, because she has never stopped having a million feelings, she lives life as... wait, let me quote Anno here: "...a woman, twenty-nine, who lives life so lightly as to barely allow the possibility of human touch. She protects herself by keeping relationships on the surface, and by running away."
Manga!Misato's coping mechanisms are considerably healthier than her anime counterpart's, but it's still pretty bad. She rarely opens up to people or shows any weakness, and when she does she tends to bounce back fast (outwardly, at least) and DIVERT DIVERT DIVERT.
So I apped Misato thinking it could be fun to play her as an amnesiac because a) She wouldn't remember all the bad shit in her life and b) She'd probably be open about the bad shit shit in her life until she got back certain memories. SHE COULD HAVE A CHANCE AT BEING A FUNCTIONAL PERSON, EVEN IF JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE.
... But then Amethyst happened and... lol. :'D
It all started with Zack naming her Hope. It was a pretty name, she liked it! But it was also heavy and, as Sugata put it, a lot to live up to. But she took it anyway because Zack is Zack and she thought it might be nice to try and become something nice for Amethyst. Maybe not "hope" itself, but at least some kind of support!
But... Amethyst being Amethyst, this ended up being a lot more difficult than she expected. Tide is so capable he doesn't really need anything from anyone, Pride just wants to be left alone, and Night arrived before her, so he was also more aware of how everything works—or so she felt, anyway! So she opted for just... being there for people and listening to whatever they had to say and... being pleasant/likable. Or more like "not nosy/not a nuisance". :') It's a big reason why she was okay with wearing that during the Manners game! Because she wanted to be helpful to her team and this was a great opportunity to do so (if this had been a Misato with more memories, she would've NEVER let that happen). THIS IS ALSO WHY SHE WANTED TO FORCE HER CAKE ONTO PRIDE, she liked it just fine, but she saw it made him happy and she wanted him to have more of that SINCE HE IS SUCH A GRUMPYPANTS.
And then he took his memory and did a total 180° on her and EVERYTHING SUCKED. 8(
So at this point Misato is starting to realize that Amethyst is probably not a team she will be able to support in the ways she would like to! She's pretty okay with Gale and Night right now, but with Pride and Tide it is all "awkward :);;" all the time. SHINJI ALSO DIDN'T CONTRIBUTE MUCH TO THIS, but it's not as bad with him because she doesn't remember being close to him at all, while team is team and just AUUUGH.
So! She is quickly slipping into old habits for entirely different reasons. Right now she is not afraid of being hurt, but she is learning that shallow relationships are not only easier, but possibly what half of her teammates prefer. She is doing a conscious effort not to be ALL UP IN PEOPLE'S BUSINESS (in and out of team) and just pretending to be happy for the sake of things being "okay".
Which is also pretty hypocritical of hers, since she has that BIG DAMN SCAR across her chest she hasn't told anyone about, but all this mindset just makes it less likely that she ever will and just. :')
I would also like to take a moment to disclaimer that I am TOTALLY COOL WITH THIS DEVELOPMENT. I saw it coming from a mile, I remember telling AJ "LOL OUR TEAM IS FULL OF LYING LIARS, THIS IS GRATE", but I just... didn't expect it to affect Misato this early on. BUT I AM ENJOYING IT IN THAT SADOMASOCHISTIC WAY I TEND TO ENJOY THESE THINGS, so. ♥ amethyst
Annnd yes. This is where we are right now. TBH it's a little frustrating to play because she's adopting this pseudo-coping mechanism that she has in canon, but without any of the other things that aid her in it (being a workaholic, getting drunk, being a badass strategist, flirting back with men, etc.) but I know it's only a matter of time before she remembers more and OTHER THINGS MIGHT HAPPEN IN BETWEEN. \o/ I am looking forward to all developments and team funtimes!
Also yeah, it is very likely that she'll start telling people to call her by her real name soon, EVEN IF SHE HASN'T REMEMBERED IT HERSELF, because. Yeah. :')
-> -> -> -> ()The long version:
Okay so what is this essay even about Floor, WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR CHARACTER?
So! Canonically, Misato has HUGE AVOIDANCE ISSUES. She had a really crappy childhood wherein her dad was always busy with work and neglecting his family. She hated it! Except then one day there was a huge explosion and her dad put her in a protective capsule, sacrificing his own life for hers. This left her with about a million feelings and she swore revenge against the Angels.
She grew up to date and live with Kaji until one day she realized just how much he reminded her of her own father at which point she panicked and dumped him with the excuse that she was seeing someone else! And from then on her life was 120% devoted to achieving her revenge. At age 29 she is an utter failure of an adult, her apartment is a perpetual mess (until Shinji moves in), she can't cook to save her life, and she drinks beer with about every meal; while at work she is incredibly responsible and capable to the point of being promoted to Major thanks to her efficiency.
And, because she has never stopped having a million feelings, she lives life as... wait, let me quote Anno here: "...a woman, twenty-nine, who lives life so lightly as to barely allow the possibility of human touch. She protects herself by keeping relationships on the surface, and by running away."
Manga!Misato's coping mechanisms are considerably healthier than her anime counterpart's, but it's still pretty bad. She rarely opens up to people or shows any weakness, and when she does she tends to bounce back fast (outwardly, at least) and DIVERT DIVERT DIVERT.
So I apped Misato thinking it could be fun to play her as an amnesiac because a) She wouldn't remember all the bad shit in her life and b) She'd probably be open about the bad shit shit in her life until she got back certain memories. SHE COULD HAVE A CHANCE AT BEING A FUNCTIONAL PERSON, EVEN IF JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE.
... But then Amethyst happened and... lol. :'D
It all started with Zack naming her Hope. It was a pretty name, she liked it! But it was also heavy and, as Sugata put it, a lot to live up to. But she took it anyway because Zack is Zack and she thought it might be nice to try and become something nice for Amethyst. Maybe not "hope" itself, but at least some kind of support!
But... Amethyst being Amethyst, this ended up being a lot more difficult than she expected. Tide is so capable he doesn't really need anything from anyone, Pride just wants to be left alone, and Night arrived before her, so he was also more aware of how everything works—or so she felt, anyway! So she opted for just... being there for people and listening to whatever they had to say and... being pleasant/likable. Or more like "not nosy/not a nuisance". :') It's a big reason why she was okay with wearing that during the Manners game! Because she wanted to be helpful to her team and this was a great opportunity to do so (if this had been a Misato with more memories, she would've NEVER let that happen). THIS IS ALSO WHY SHE WANTED TO FORCE HER CAKE ONTO PRIDE, she liked it just fine, but she saw it made him happy and she wanted him to have more of that SINCE HE IS SUCH A GRUMPYPANTS.
And then he took his memory and did a total 180° on her and EVERYTHING SUCKED. 8(
So at this point Misato is starting to realize that Amethyst is probably not a team she will be able to support in the ways she would like to! She's pretty okay with Gale and Night right now, but with Pride and Tide it is all "awkward :);;" all the time. SHINJI ALSO DIDN'T CONTRIBUTE MUCH TO THIS, but it's not as bad with him because she doesn't remember being close to him at all, while team is team and just AUUUGH.
So! She is quickly slipping into old habits for entirely different reasons. Right now she is not afraid of being hurt, but she is learning that shallow relationships are not only easier, but possibly what half of her teammates prefer. She is doing a conscious effort not to be ALL UP IN PEOPLE'S BUSINESS (in and out of team) and just pretending to be happy for the sake of things being "okay".
Which is also pretty hypocritical of hers, since she has that BIG DAMN SCAR across her chest she hasn't told anyone about, but all this mindset just makes it less likely that she ever will and just. :')
I would also like to take a moment to disclaimer that I am TOTALLY COOL WITH THIS DEVELOPMENT. I saw it coming from a mile, I remember telling AJ "LOL OUR TEAM IS FULL OF LYING LIARS, THIS IS GRATE", but I just... didn't expect it to affect Misato this early on. BUT I AM ENJOYING IT IN THAT SADOMASOCHISTIC WAY I TEND TO ENJOY THESE THINGS, so. ♥ amethyst
Annnd yes. This is where we are right now. TBH it's a little frustrating to play because she's adopting this pseudo-coping mechanism that she has in canon, but without any of the other things that aid her in it (being a workaholic, getting drunk, being a badass strategist, flirting back with men, etc.) but I know it's only a matter of time before she remembers more and OTHER THINGS MIGHT HAPPEN IN BETWEEN. \o/ I am looking forward to all developments and team funtimes!
Also yeah, it is very likely that she'll start telling people to call her by her real name soon, EVEN IF SHE HASN'T REMEMBERED IT HERSELF, because. Yeah. :')
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I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING ME.
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it says great and wonderful things about how deep the scars go in each of us really :'D
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But yes. :( ALSO WE SHOULD THREAD, hilariously right now Asuka is one of the few people she feels 100% comfortable with so lololol.
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... that is lolarious, i love it, hilariously asuka's still not 100% sure how attached she should be to misato, she kind of feels like she's imposing in a way that makes her internal sense go "AAAH AVOID IT IS TOO RISKY" herself because MAYBE I WEIRDED HER OUT TOO MUCH ON HER FIRST DAY? WHAT DO - and welp i'm going to be making a day 17 post as soon as it's time to switch over, i'm sure misato can respond to that, HEH HEH (she says, ominously)
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BUT YES, right now she is super aware that she isn't really close to anyone and going from memories is not 100% safe, but Asuka opened up to her when she first arrived and she feels slightly responsible for her, BECAUSE THEY WERE LIVING TOGETHER IN THAT MEMORY and. Yes.
loev Asuka
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And yes Sugata epically fails at accepting help from people when there is any alternative.
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