CONGRATULATIONS SHINJI

[failtactical]

[s-s-surprise candle call?!]

Comments

[oedipuswreck]

[looks startled at . . . that . . . answer. like, maybe he wasn't expecting to be told "no" but just—that's it?]

. . .

[failtactical]

Has anybody said otherwise?

[oedipuswreck]

Shouldn't I go—back there?

[failtactical]

[shakes her head]

That's your choice.

[oedipuswreck]

[voice cracking, raising in pitch]

Even Misato-san—?

[failtactical]

[baby no]

Were you expecting me to tell you what to do?

[oedipuswreck]

I—I don't know—

[getting teary again]

[failtactical]

You haven't remembered everything yet, have you? It's not something you have to decide right now.

[oedipuswreck]

I don't want to go back!

[failtactical]

Then... don't.

[oedipuswreck]

But— . . .

What?

[failtactical]

What?

[oedipuswreck]

Misato-san . . . you always wanted me to pilot Eva.

[failtactical]

Yes. And you did.

[oedipuswreck]

I didn't save anybody. I never . . .

[failtactical]

Are you certain of that?

[oedipuswreck]

. . . I didn't save Ayanami. And anybody else I might have saved once—didn't I just go and ruin that?

[failtactical]

Did you? Do you remember enough to be 100% sure of that?

More importantly, how does that affect your decision?

[oedipuswreck]

. . . I was only ever miserable there. I don't want to go back.

[failtactical]

So if it turns out that you did save people... will you want to go back, then?

[oedipuswreck]

No—. . . I want to go home with Ruka and Kaworu . . . I want to help here . . . I—

[failtactical]

Then do that, Shinji-kun.

[oedipuswreck]

But aren't I responsible for what I've done?!

[failtactical]

Yes, you are.

[oedipuswreck]

So how can I say—I can't fix it, I don't want to fix it, I want to be happy?